Bridesmaid?

Happy hump day!

A time comes in every girl's life... well, not every girl's, but quite a few... when your friend gets married. It's kinda difficult for me at times. We've been around each other a while. We've both endured the single life and lamented over the lack of prospects.

But now, she's found the one.

And there's a part of me that's sad and envious even though I'm very happy for her. This has been a long time coming for her. Now she's getting married in a bit over a month and for the first time in my adult life, I'm a bridesmaid. I've been one before, but never in the capacity I am now. I bought my dress and I'm participating in bridesmaids-y events on my own. I feel so grown up.

However, I'm just a bridesmaid. And she has a closer friend that's her maid of honor. I feel a twinge of jealousy. Well, of course they have a closer past. They've been through lots of things together and our friendship is more of a casual one.

But I'm just a bridesmaid. Just a participant in the ceremony that's left out of conversations during planning parties and not included in on group selfies.

And then when they day comes, chances are, I will be escaping to the bathroom to cry.

I'm really sad that I'm nothing but happy. This is my dear friend who I have seen going through a terrible breakup, being hung up over a guy and then finally after a long wait, has found someone to spend the rest of her life with.

But I want that too. To meet someone who is willing to take a risk on me. Yes, it's really selfish, but I do feel that way. I'm approaching 30 quickly and it's tough being that one single person when all your friends have been married for years. I've felt the growing apart. As they settle in to their couple life, the conversations become more difficult to endure because it's all "we" and plans for the future and the babies that eventually come along.

But, I started this blog to feel happier about my singleness, so I won't dwell on that too much. I am really looking forward to the wedding though. Seeing her in the dress makes me feel so giddy. Like it's really happening. And I'm a part of something beautiful.

That's enough to make me happy.

Finally my IKEA desk

I'd been eyeing the Micke desk from IKEA ever since my first visit a few months back. I was seriously kicking myself for not getting it then because it was all I could think of. I just wanted to return to get it.

And get it I did. My brother and I put the whole thing together over the course of two evenings.

I'm still trying to get everything back in order, but I am indeed welcoming the extra space.

Especially the drawers. Two drawers to organize all my junks. I couldn't be happier!!!

Enjoying my youth

I'm about to hit 30 now. It's not sad until I'm all looking at my friends and how they're doing stuff... Had two people I know have babies recently, my closest friend getting married... Saw my dear friend from elementary through high school get married recently. And don't get me started on how my Facebook looks... Oi, the envy.

I shouldn't feel that way. Compared to them, I can do whatever I want to without having to think about anybody else. And that I did.

Sunrise into Georgia

Everyone else was going away and I was gonna be home alone so I packed my overnight bag, hopped in my car, and set off for Atlanta early early early (like before 6:30am) in the morning with just an energy drink by my side.

This is something I would so do again. Totally. In a heartbeat. As long as gas prices are reasonable.

My main reason for going was to get a Micke desk from IKEA but I had to finally go to the Super H Mart in Riverdale since my brother has been suggesting me to go like forever. There I was introduced to the lovely cream cheese buns from Tous les Jours, a Korean French-style bakery. Gotta give them props for having goodies that are not too sweet.

Obligatory ramune purchase

Along with that, I got some ramune and Pocky as well as a pack of Choco Baby. I was just too drugged up on energy drink that I could barely do anything more than wander the aisle looking at things to try anything adventurous.

Then I got all the goodies from IKEA for my desk as well as a few other edibles.

Basically the weekend can be summed up as I bought a lot, I ate a lot. And it was awesome.

Went home the following afternoon. I kinda wish I stopped more, but I was just anxious to get home so I could call my first ever solo road trip in my new car a success... I need more weekends like that. I'm already planning to go back again to enjoy a few other things Atlanta has to offer. If I were more inclined, I would so move there.

Trying this blogging thing again

I'm back again!

Oh my life is so busy! Between work and various hobbies, sometimes I feel that I don't have time for anything. But today, I'm taking time to do blogging. It's been way too long. I keep taking pictures and never sharing and doing things but never really doing much more than tweeting about it. It's a tiring life, but I'm enjoying it.

And I think chopping one thing out of my life, that'll leave me with time to actually blog... Keep some record of the cool things in my life as I do them. Well, I like to think they're cool.

But one thing that I'm so annoyed with a lot of bloggers that I used to follow. They used to have cool blogs. They'd talk about their lives and then I'd be inspired, and I actually liked my life better back then. But then suddenly, the blogs just became heylookwhatijustbought.com instead of heylookhowcoolmylifeis.net. Quite a boring difference.

So I'm gonna inspire my own life!

And that's about it...!